People are complicated.

Have you ever felt so stagnant, that holding your breath til you're blue would actually make you feel better? At least there'd be the sweet relief of a fast gasp.

24 and lost like a sinner in rural China.... I am continually heart broken, mainly by my own actions, burdened with worries of the future, and aching for an "out."  My day dream is to run away to a place where I know no one, work a job I hate, come home to walk my dog, and write write write, with no distractions.  Life is such a distraction.  

Oh but I am so jealous of the lives I see on Facebook- in the photos and the quotes and the ringtones. I've never been to Europe-- will I ever?  And I am angry, for no reason sometimes. I have little patience for the people closest to me.

I want to be married.  I want to be 30 and single.  I want to do everything by myself.  It makes no sense. People never do.